Times in Psalm 119

Lately, I've been reading the longest chapter of the Bible. I find it so fascinating. It demonstrates a heart so close to God, a person who longs to obey the Word. I want to be a believer so in love with my Savior that I can say "I see you with all my heart; do not let me stray from you commands" (119:10). All my heart should be seeking my Savior. So often I fail to seek Him wholeheartedly. I am distracted by things of this world..things that won't matter in eternity. Also, often I stray from His commands. I am foolish because I know what God's word commands, yet sometimes I fail to obey what I know to be true.

Later in the chapter, it shows the heart of one after God's own heart. "You are my portion, O Lord; I have promised to obey your words. I have sought your face with all my heart; be gracious to me according to your promise" (119: 57-58). God is all that I need for life. No matter what the world or media or friends try to tell me, my God is all that I need for life, for happiness for a bright future. I don't need money or fame, ALL I need is Jesus. My portion forever. However, often I neglect my Portion and turn to the things of the world. The useless worldly things temporarily appease my wants, but only God can completely satisfy my needs.

Verse 97 states, " Oh, how I love your law! I meditate on it all day long." This verse really got me thinking. How much do I love the Word of God? Do I think about His words all day long? The answer: is no. I do not mediate on the Word of God as much as I should (which is all day long). I need to memorize more verses so that I can meditate on the Bible all day long-in order to transform my heart to be more like God's heart.

I want to be able to say this and mean it, "I open my mouth and pant, longing for your commands" (119:131). Am I really that hungry, that thirsty to hear the Word of God? Am i dependant on God to sustain me throughout my day? I desire to hear and learn more from God and His word, but I am not to the level where the author of this psalm was at. I fail to pant for God's word. My spiritual stomach may growl, but i am not at the state of panting for God like the psalmist was.

I desire to have a heart for God. To love His Word and obey it because of my love for Him and His law. To meditate on His Word and who He is all day long. To truly love the Lord my God, with ALL my heart, with ALL my soul, with ALL my mind, and with ALL my strength. He wants my all, because He has given me His All when Jesus died on the cross for me.

I am hungry
I am hungry
I am hungry for more of You.
I am thirsty
Oh Jesus,
I am thirsty for more of You.

We lift our holy hands up
We want to touch you
We lift our voices
Higher and higher and Higher to You.

God, make me thirsty for You. Change my heart. Make my heart more like Yours. Break my heart for those things that break Yours. Show me how to love others as You loved them. May I love you with ALL of me, not just some of me. Be King of my life.